Photos taken at our El Sol house...

Empty House Syndrome

It's hard to believe our little life here is dismantled...gone in a puff...in a frenzy of activity...and then nothing. You can really see how fleeting is life. Staying here after everything is gone is also a way of prolonging the mourning...I'm really going to miss it here...this is where I brought my babies home from the hospital, where they all took their first steps (including Kathryne). So this is as close as I've ever come to having a "family" home. Nothing special by far, yet a place I will never forget, the bad memories will fade, but the good ones will remain. All the photos and events that have taken place here...we won't be able to forget.

So, we're going through it here at the old Burton-Bradford former household. I've had one six hour stretch of sleep since Doug left for MO on October 23rd. Each night I pray that we will all sleep - but that prayer has yet to be answered. Darcy does the best at sleeping, she only wakes up every few nights. Holland on the other hand wakes up several times a night, her eczema rash has spread terribly and it's keeping her awake. Then two nights ago her sniffles turned hardcore and she had a fever. Last night it was up to 103. The heat coming off of her made her rash flare up and it was non-stop for about four hours. I feel so bad for her. And I'm petrified I'm going to catch something horrible. Holland got it from Kathryne, who has been in bed since last Wednesday night. I'm also very frightened Darcy will get it and I'm afraid of her getting a fever, especially after last April when she had the seizures and went to ER (which we're still paying for).
Here I am, I expected this week to be super fun and amazing and it's going to be crap. I was going to take the girls to the park and Descanso and go see people to say goodbye. Now we'll be trapped here in the empty house with no comforts.
I'm bumming. I'm more than bumming. If Darcy gets sick this week (I'm expecting it within the next 2-3 days) then we won't be flying out on Sunday. Another delay!
I guess I'm just disappointed that I won't get to enjoy my final days in the area. The weather has finally gotten beautiful, it's cooler and kinder.

My throat is getting itchy and my eyes hurt...does that mean anything?

MOVING ON UP

Halloween 2009

This one is so cute!

Kathryne vying for title of donut-on-a-string eater!

Me as Julia Child, Kathryne as Lemon Meringue, Holland as Tinker Bell,
and Darcy as the cutest little punkin.

This is pretty funny, there's a "finger" dangling from Ian's hand,

right by Darcy's head...